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thewlisian_aferJust a 150-word snippet of Sirius being angsty over Remus. Written as a companion piece to Froda's 148-word snippet of Remus being angsty over Sirius. And no, Froda, this doesn't mean I've finished my new samples for Splinched. XD I never do things in the order I'm meant to do them in.
Remus Lupin scares me. Quiet, gentle, polite... terrifying.
When he looks at someone he can really see them, and that's disconcerting to people like me who only put forth part of themselves. He knows what's hidden, and he could easily use it to hurt me. I don't think he would, but the potential exists and it's frightening.
Even more frightening is the fact that I love him. Fiercely. He has stood beside me when none other has. He has given me forgiveness when I haven't deserved it. He has loved me when I have given him reason not to. I want to give him all of this and more in return, but I'm not a good person like he is. I don't know if I can be what he needs. I'm afraid all I can do is hurt him.
That, in the end, is what terrifies me most of all.
Remus Lupin scares me. Quiet, gentle, polite... terrifying.
When he looks at someone he can really see them, and that's disconcerting to people like me who only put forth part of themselves. He knows what's hidden, and he could easily use it to hurt me. I don't think he would, but the potential exists and it's frightening.
Even more frightening is the fact that I love him. Fiercely. He has stood beside me when none other has. He has given me forgiveness when I haven't deserved it. He has loved me when I have given him reason not to. I want to give him all of this and more in return, but I'm not a good person like he is. I don't know if I can be what he needs. I'm afraid all I can do is hurt him.
That, in the end, is what terrifies me most of all.
